Tribulations

Today's service was simply awesome.

It was preached by Dr A R Bernard on Tribulations. I could feel that the message was a sign from God to me. I knew that God is always around, but today's message reinforces my spiritual growth. This week hadn't been an easy one for me, I am mentally and spiritually drained. I have problems with my relationship, I feel that all of my efforts are just going to be gone to waste.

The week started off with my anniversary with my significant other. That day just felt horrible. I could not find anyway to describe it. Maybe it just me, maybe its just like what you said, anniversary is nothing but just a date.

The other days just felt worst, I could not find that love we used to have, to be honest, I could not recall when it was the last time we had a proper date. I find it hard to speak to you, it is like as though we have ran out of topics to talk about. It hurts more when you seem so happy speaking to your friends and the next moment when I speak to you all I get is simple replies.

I feel dejected. But I don't blame you knowing that you are stressed up with upcoming tests and having sleepless nights. I could only blame myself for not knowing you better and being so upset with all these that is happening. I'm on the verge of crying while I'm typing this, not that I'm sad but I just want this to be solved, this cannot go on.

Well, I guess I have to apologize for keeping this from you, but I really couldn't find a way to talk about this. There had been no opportunity. I'm sorry.