Tribulations

Today's service was simply awesome.

It was preached by Dr A R Bernard on Tribulations. I could feel that the message was a sign from God to me. I knew that God is always around, but today's message reinforces my spiritual growth. This week hadn't been an easy one for me, I am mentally and spiritually drained. I have problems with my relationship, I feel that all of my efforts are just going to be gone to waste.

The week started off with my anniversary with my significant other. That day just felt horrible. I could not find anyway to describe it. Maybe it just me, maybe its just like what you said, anniversary is nothing but just a date.

The other days just felt worst, I could not find that love we used to have, to be honest, I could not recall when it was the last time we had a proper date. I find it hard to speak to you, it is like as though we have ran out of topics to talk about. It hurts more when you seem so happy speaking to your friends and the next moment when I speak to you all I get is simple replies.

I feel dejected. But I don't blame you knowing that you are stressed up with upcoming tests and having sleepless nights. I could only blame myself for not knowing you better and being so upset with all these that is happening. I'm on the verge of crying while I'm typing this, not that I'm sad but I just want this to be solved, this cannot go on.

Well, I guess I have to apologize for keeping this from you, but I really couldn't find a way to talk about this. There had been no opportunity. I'm sorry.

Science Vs Faith

As a child, I'm brought up in a Buddhist family. I don't really pray, whenever people ask me about my religious views I would say I'm a free thinker. Well to others, put bluntly, an atheist or rather evolutionary. I that science gives us all the answers to whatever questions that the human race has. I slowly understood how human's have similar DNA with apes and the view of science where we descended from the ancient apes. I though how foolish it was to believe that there was a God. I could say that it was impossible for me to accept any religious views.

The battle of "Science Vs Faith" may still continue but I have found my answer.

There is no true science without faith. Science is the study of God's rule, it is about God making things the way it is. Like how a ball would fall when we loosen our hands and how wires conduct electricity to power up our light bulbs.

I am thankful of You and knowing You is the best thing that has happened in my life, God for everything that You have done in my life. It has really been amazing, I thank You for picking me up when I'm feeling sad. I thank You for working on my life, I thank You for caring. I seek your word as you are my heavenly father, and my teacher. I believe that you will bless me to become a blessing for others. I trust that You would never abandon me but love me more, God, You are always around and I surely thank You for that. Amen.

A Word from God.
Genesis 12:2
"I will make you into a great nation and I will bless you; I will make your name great, and you will be a blessing"

Changing my world, one step at a time.

“You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams.” 
― Dr. Seuss

My dear, thank you for making my life so great. I know you hit me a lot for no reason but... ahh, its okay! Just wait till we get married. Hehehe. With much love. (: