Creations

I wonder how could human beings create such sophisticated sculptures and buildings. Looking around the world in different light seems like I was brought to an entirely new place.

Yet we could see many people destroying what they were given, perhaps, if the world would to end now and let another race rule maybe it would be a better place.

zealot

My granny is asking me to go for church services again, I'm fine with that.

But to baptise?

hmmm...

No I'm not running away but..

argh. screw this. the migraine is coming back to kill me ):

dream house!

Love begins by taking care of the closest ones - the ones at home. ~ Mother Teresa

My dream house seems so fairy tale like. I remembered someone told me its impossible for me to fulfill this dream, such would not be possible in Singapore! But in other places, I'm sure one day I'd fulfill my dream. To lead a simple and peaceful life after my retirement. The thought of reading a book under a dreamy star filled sky, this feeling is... inexplicable.

Oh like in my previous post I woke up early in the morning today travelling all the way to Bras Basah to Kum Yan Methodist church. I guess it a missionary as well as providing welfare to one room flats rented from the government by old people. So After the briefing and stuff we set off in a mini bus and ended up in North Bridge Road where the government, houses these people.

oh and I just received a text that says I'd be ignored for one hour ): sigh. THIS SUCKS. ):

Looking around the place I'd say they are given quite a great condition and facilities! Heres what they got.

A beautiful garden with loads of exercising areas!

High rised apartment flat!

A canteen area by volunteers for food at practically no charge!

Gym facilities!

karaoke plus many many other activities room such as chess!

Omg their like so good right! Like living in condo sia everything is just located under their void deck! All they need is a swimming pool and its on par with a normal condo flat! Got chance I also want leh. Their rental only 100 dollar per month includes all utilities bill and somemore can ask volunteers from downstairs to clean their flats at no charge!

So yup, we broke up into small groups and went on with the main purpose, I was grouped with my grandma and another old lady. She was a rather friendly lady rather healthy too, even at the age of 75 she could walk unaided. The first unit was at the 9th floor, we went there to meet a granny which they had once visited before, although it was not the first time visiting old folks living in one room flats its the first time for me to actually step in and mingle in their home. I'd say everything is well provided and one room is ample for them, but there won't be extra space for anything more than a bed, a cupboard and a Tv rack. Something like our very own chalet in downtown east. But like the nature of old folks to keep stuffs, even unnecessary ones their house would likely be packed with tons of trash which they deem as valuable and as waste to throw them away. I took this mentality in when I was on my way up.

Upon knocking the door the group of three was greeted with a warm smile and she cordially invited us in to chat up further. We went in and the 3 old ladies started chatting about their life, seemly friends which had met long long time ago. Like a usual conversation, old people would usually take about 3 points.

• Their Past.
• Their Grandchildren/Children.
• Their Health.

They were speaking in Cantonese making it hard for me to join in, not that I don't understand Cantonese but phrasing chim sentences kills loads of my brain cells and it was still early in the morning. I'd rather sit back and listen. While the threesome continued, I peered around the house trying to see how limited space was. Without the divider that the old lady placed up I'd say the room is only like 250 sq ft? I could only give a light smile and nod in agreement when they mention and gave me eye contact.

But it's kind of pitiful for such old folks to live alone in such flats, having no one to take care of them. Some even at the age of 98 lives alone in this little room of theirs. Their physical needs are often answered by the volunteers but what about their other needs? Upon talking to them many of us could see that they are generally unhappy, unhappy about many many things, being lonely is one of the common issue. They had lived alone for so long with no family members, no kins, no friends, no one to confide into. Having to bear all their problems they face, they worries, no one could share their burden. ): If this happened to me I won't know what to do. Life would indeed suck, suck to the fullest. Let's just pray that it won't happen...

Did I mention that their house is filled with gadgets to prevent and observe their safety? Their house even had a movement detector to ensure their safety and any unusual activity would be reported directly to the control station below their block! They also had alarms and emergency bell which they could press and an ambulance would be directed to their aid immediately!

The duper loud siren outside each of their units.

All of these would not have been possible without these passionate volunteers from Peace Connect! http://www.pcnl.org/about_us.html

We then went back to the church and had a 'holy' debrief. It was kinda weird where The Lord is mentioned in every single like they speak. ._. Thereafter I brought my grandma to bugis street and ate Lerk Thai since shes mad over Thai food.

wanting yet never achieving

Oh look its so early! 8 plus in the morning! Hahaha.

It has been a week since school started. Everything seems so, smooth sailing, perhaps its time to work even harder this semester not just to make up for the last but to enrich myself with all that knowledge which I want to learn.

I wouldn't say that I did not try to study for the last sem but I just couldn't score well. Maybe its time to put in that extra bit of effort in scoring!

Oh and to that lovely friend of mine, I guess bits and pieces of your past are pouring back to haunt you again. Sigh. But I'm sure you would pull through again! That's for sure. Let's just hope and pray that all goes well for the medical report! :)

Why does she deserve all this shit. Life is unfair. But what does not kill you, makes you stronger right? :D

let no destination be the destination.

SEEEEEEEEEEEEEE DANDELIONS! WOOHOO.


Sometimes it's just better to let nature take course, knowing too much just makes life boring. :> let the wind carry where we may go.

Somehow, we flew out of Singapore today. So fun right. 25/10/11 shall not be a sucky day. hi, it didn't suck rightttt? ):

After a long long time of rotting, crapping and eating instant noodles, we decided to go ahead with our trip to Pulau Ubin as the sky was rather clear. I guess the bus ride there was rather boring as someone, decided to be sleepy and not entertain me ):

first picture of the day! Look its flowers, I guess someone is really starting to love flowers! :3 and not cut of the tail of lizards.

The wait for the boat was rather long and we started taking photos. While the Caucasian couple started ranting about how bad the ferry service was, I guess it was rather true.

loook its my Porsche sunglasses from Indonesia! 10 bucks nia!

oh and here's the girl with motion sickness trying to not vomit!

Sadly it started drizzling, but it only lasted during the boat ride! We arrived and went biking. I'd say the biking experience was rather fun, if only I didn't have to catch up like 90% of the time ): idk how someone could paddle so fast. kns. and and and if we didn't get bitten by mosquito along the way. We cycled without any proper destination though and ended up in dead ends. Then, she started grumbling about being hungry and we decided to go back for seafood horfun!

I'd say that the horfun there was rather nice, like the last time I ate, the seafood there is really fresh! And heres what we did while waiting...

look at the hungry goblin. x.x

After lunch we decided to return the bikes and explore by foot instead. And again, the destination was to see a proper sunset by the beach. Which had failed in the past few days. Okay. Looked up the map and decided on Noordin beach, a beach at the extreme north end of Pulau Ubin. The walk there was rather tiring as it was about 3km? adding up with our tired legs. Imagine! Soon, we were at the beach! Not the best sunset but still, it was worth the walk.

The skys suddenly darken as the clouds moves in, we decided to hasten our pace. Thanks for dragging me out of that place. :D haha. So we made our way back to the jetty and boarded the boat. 'Last' boat too. lucky us? <:

We made our way back to the interchange and I was so hungry that I had to stop by the famous changi village market for some food. The carrot cake was a turnoff I must say, but but but the satays are rather appealing to me, maybe I'm just hungry. Idk.

OH HI WE SHARED A KIT KAT. <: it cost me 50 cents!

The way back was rather quiet, as she decided to be sleepy and not talk to me again, apparently staring out to the window was more fun. Kidding! I dozed off and shortly after, I found myself in Tampines. Waved goodbye at her void deck and that marks the end of 25/10/11.

P.S. When will you level up and piggyback me when I'm tired ):

deja vu?

I guess somethings we would only experience one. Exams anxiety is one of them.

Woke up early in the morning today and went to her house. Sadly her prepaid died. And I forgot to save her house number. I stood outside the door for quite a while trying to wake her up with the pathetic door bell. With the neighbour giving me constant weird glares.

After A WHILE, we left house and went to have breakfast, no lunch, at 201. Had Mac, again. Shortly after, we wished each other good luck and waved goodbye! While she was on her way to Dunman, I went home as I was having runs. ._. Saw J under my block again. Pulled myself together and went to Pasir Ris Sec, Paper 1 was rather a killer, I think I'm gonna score rather badly. There goes my A. Sigh. Picking myself up, I went back in to take Paper 2, I felt it was rather okay as most question were attemptxable. Hopefully I would do well! #fingerscrossed. Henry appeared at the school gate once I was dismissed started questioning about the exams and took my scrips. He is one good teacher I'd say, someone whom is more worried for me than myself.

In between all this, many of my friends taking O levels texted me for updates. I guess thats what we all did during our Sec 4 days. hmmph. Oh did I mention that ah yam was in the same exam room as me. Thank god he didn't recognise me or he would pester me again talking all about D.

Had dinner and went for a hair cut. Then went home. <---- abrupt ending due to poor information feed. (might edit soon)

plant a garden, believe in the future.

awesome quote that I stumbled upon today.

Life is indeed full of possibility,

Who knows that she would be so tired that we won't go for the event at Poi Cheng School.

Who knows that we would meet for lunch at 3+.

Who knows that I would have Ayam Panggang for lunch.

Who knows that we would go to UrbanWrite.

Who knows that she could not find her pen.

Who knows that we would go to the MRT station.

Who knows that we would decide to go to Botanic Garden.

Who knows that we would go around taking many funny photos.

Who knows that we would go to the orchid garden and take artistic photos.

Who knows that there were places such as the cool room - that is literally cool -.

Who knows that we would see swans.

Who knows that we could feed fishes there.

Who knows that we tease each other while walking.

Who knows that she suffers from mild night time blindness and can't see my face ):.

Who knows that we would make our way back by train.

Who knows we would have dinner at some coffeeshop near our houses.

Who knows that I'd walk her home.

Who knows if her mum would nag(in a concerned manner!) at her for coming home so late.

Who knows if she had enjoyed her day?

Bon Apetite

Woke up super early today just to pack everything for the little mini-competition we decided to have! Everything was frozen solid as my maid misunderstood my words, if only I could speak better Indonesian! Texted miss little sleepyhead and realised she was still sleeping so I decided to go back to sleep while the food defrost.

When all else fail, pop by at the door and spam the doorbell! Right that was what I did. AND I was greeted by a puffy head girl all dressed up in Pajamas and hugging her plush. Wish I had a camera! Haha.

Messed around with the laptop while thinking where to hide the present while she went to bathe. And after a minutes I went exploring in her room and got caught by her. Suspicious she went to ransack her room thinking I already hid the present! #dummy <: After blasting music we went down to meet TJ. He practically targeted me with, why is he here ._. tmd. k nevermind.

Then we went up to cook a hearty meal, maybe not so hearty. Sigh. Grumbles. We cooked so much that her siblings had to eat with us! Haha. Oh did I mention that Nicholas said hi to me. Awkward much.

Here comes the beach, where could we find a better sunset besides the beach right! Sadly we went to Pasir Ris Beach which is at the Eastern side of SG. So, no sunset ): but time spent there was still fun! Walking around with a broken slipper. <: Backtracking a little, on the way to the beach while waiting for the bus, I asked for the rating of my food, sadly I only got an 8/10 cause of the semi burnt ebi fry ): and I joking ask if she wish to know about hers. She didn't want an answer, saying that I'd criticise her cooking.

Still HERE it is. HI YOU, I'd give you a 9/10! I mean, you really did well for a 'first' timer. Not counting the chaotar food you made during FnN right! <: And cooking the rice is no easy task I'd say. <-- LOL. But there is always room for improvement! THANKS FOR THE MEAL <3 As dusk fell, we took many photos and that concluded the day. life, made simple. :>

picture of life.

I just wish he was cuter than me. ha. ha. ha.

Happy Birthday Grandma! Hope you liked my present! Haha. I really can't thank you enough for taking care of me all these years! But words are nothing compared to actions right!

a good person

I've been pondering about this question the entire day.

What does it mean to be a good person?

The first question that came to my mind was if I were a good person myself?

No doubt, it was a yes. No further explanations needed. Not trying to boast or whatsoever but I'm a good person alright. x.x

Next was this, what is a good person?

I felt that somehow, a good person is one whom could bring change to the world. Change for the better. I don't really think its really possible for every single 'good' person to change the world, so I brought it down to changing one's life. A good person would be helpful enough to help even a stranger without any thoughts of benefits. Somehow I felt that I'm yet to be a good person, although I have the intention of helping people, I might withdraw my intentions if there were reasons.

The last question that came to my mind was rather weird, why would a good person want to do good?

To be honest, this question stumped me. I think there are no true reasons for one to do good. It seems something magnificent and yet inscrutable. Many told me that what influenced them to do good is that they had once received someone else's goodwill. That did not happen to me, at least not that I know of. Hm, it's all weird, maybe I'd find out one day. But for now, I'd just stick to my principles of living and help as many people as I could. Sounds noble to me. hmmph.

what a weird day.

Wish upon a star

It has been days since I got back to home, but I hadn't rest a bit. sigh. Been trying my best to work something out with Jasmine for our Adhoc event. It's like the first VL-adhoc event so there's much pressure put on us from the people on top. Everything had been well, we managed to gather out volunteers for this little childminding event planned by CDC.

So we made our way respectively to Tiong Bahru Mrt where the 'eyes' from above Wei Bin was waiting for us. His one nice guy.

Oh oh oh, did I mention that on our way to the center which is about 10 mins walk away, everyone was so orderly! We are practically walking in twos. Hahahahahaha, the CSC culture as someone once told me. So we reached our destination lead by Wei Bin as J and I only know the route roughly. We went in to the center and to our surprise, we weren't expected there.

There had been much miscommunication between the organisation and us. J and I went to talked to the staff there, and found out that the meeting was cancelled. The email was sent to J 10 in the morning but she didn't had the chance to read it. All hell broke loose, we made 9 person travel all the way here and the meeting is cancelled.

But not all hope is lost, the staff there were rather friendly people. We negotiated with them and they managed to provide us with a room! The volunteers were settled inside this rather cramp room as it was filled with goody bags for the up coming Deepavali celebrations.

Here are some snapshots!

The briefing was rather successful, much thanks to J as she had much knowledge of the event while I was enjoying myself in Indonesia! But I'm sure it would not be possible without the contribution of everyone. Thanks guys! We managed to figure out everything and now its down to us to complete the proposal and submit it to the organisation. Hopefully it would get approved and everything progress as planned. Sigh.

P.S. I think I better start doing more stuffs, I'm like leeching x.x hahahaha

Is there a God?

Oh so today, I reached homeeee after the flight from Indonesia. Went home by cab while my mum went to meet my ahma for lunch and dabao for me. As usual I washed up and glued to my computer, thinking what to do next. Not before long, my maid came knocking on my door saying that theres someone at our door! Thinking it was just some door to door salesman I walked out with the intention of shoving him off with a classic 'parents not at home.'

So this 2 guy stood outside of my door with a classic bag that's of a property agent, but before I could throw my line he started intruding himself and talking about we are the last of our kind due to our sins or something. Then he took out his bible and asked if I was a christian and my views on the some verse in Matthew 21. As it was in chinese I had no idea where to find the verse was but, to put it crudely, its saying how the world sucks because of us and He says that the only way to save it is only us. I smiled and said nop but I mentioned about my grandmother being one. He smiled and explained the verse and asked about my views. I only nodded and said its very much true, its indeed happening everywhere. Just take for example of my short stay in Indonesia.

I guess the conversation lasted about 10 mins, but was abruptly ended when he said that I might be busy with something and I said yes. So we exchanged names and he said he would come back again sometime to talk again. Well, it seems like its one of the rare few times where 'holy' people talk to me about their religions and I had no pressure of converting or whatsoever, maybe he didn't had the intention? Haha who knows!

But it kept me thinking, thinking about how the bible may somehow be true. Could it be just mere coincidence or maybe it had been a problem since the past?

Does God even exist?

It hit me real hard this time, I don't know. Its all weird. Time will tell, right?

The last fleeting hours.

I would say it was rather pooly spent. Slept till the late evening, went to shopping center again. I'd say Jakarta aren't really an established city, poverty is still thriving across the city (or rather, the poor wealth distribution is the problem), the taxi drivers there earns peanuts. Sometimes, I just can't stand my mum bargaining just to save the 5-10k which is like a dollar? I mean, its not like we are dirt rich or whatsoever, but don't they deserve more than we do? An extra 5-10k would easily buy them an extra meal while a dollar that we have, could only buy us, say a cup of coffee?

The best had yet to come, when we were on the taxi back to the hotel, there was quite a bad jam although the trip would only take 10 mins we sat in the car for about half and hour. During the ride, many street beggars knocked on car windows to ask for money, I very much wanted to give them a lump sum of money like say 50-80k? Thinking that they could get back on their feet though this small 'gift' of mine, maybe get a proper job and not risk their life on the streets asking for money. The roads freaking dangerous I'd say, no traffic lights at all. I had to jaywalk 8 lanes to get to the other side of the street today. But I was highly trained in this by someone <:

Getting back to the beggars, in the end, I didn't even gave them a single cent, I was stuck by dilemma when the taxi driver advised me not to saying that they might swamp us and cause a worst traffic jam. At this point, I really had no idea what to do, all that's in my mind is 'what's the government doing?' The taxi driver told us that this happens everyday without fail. How can a natural resource filled country end up like this? Needless to say that I'm in the capital city and that conditions should be better! I really can't imagine how the people there living in the rural areas spent their day.

At the end of the trip the taxi charges were like 21700 but he only asked for 20, I had the sudden urge to refuse and insisted to pay him extra saying, 'kau minum kopi' gave him a smile and a nod as he drove off with a thankful face, this really made my day. Still my heart was itching about the beggars, I felt rather helpless only able to comfort, maybe deceive myself that, that's the best I could do, I am only me.

The hotel staff also left me a deep impression throughout the stay, they would never fail to greet or thank you whenever you walk past them, I would say they are exceptional people? hahaha. And yet, the hotel wasn't one of the best it was only a 4 star maybe cause of it's facilities idk. But the service there is awesome. From the chambermaids to the front desk staff they are all carrying a smile on their faces. <: But I really doubt it is the pay that made them show all this, their pay might well be crap anyways, or maybe not, I don't know. Just to put on simple note, this world may suck or maybe like what Travor said in the movie "pay it forward", 'is the world just shit?' Seriously it is, but with just a simple smile and be delighted with what you are given, I'm sure the world would become a better place. For one day, someone, somehow, would give you what you truly deserves.

grant me a million wishes

Today started all in a really funny note. I missed breakfast! walao. Its funny okay, if you don't find it funny I guess you lack some sense of humor.

Went to WTC Mangga dua. More shopping. Shopping shopping shopping. Its so packed even on a weekday, just like our very own Bugis street! And I noticed something common throughout my travels, almost every shop in every country I go would sweep the payment they received on their goods, perhaps its a sign of goodluck? Hmm, I wonder.

Lunch was amazing, I ate ayam kermer some fried chicken with a veggi chilli patty together with crumps, and my god, it was one of the best meal I had in Indonesia! Best part is it only cost 22k! which is about 3 bucks in Singapore!

To top it up, I bought some UFO pandan thingy, no idea whats the name at 1k each, its freaking nice okay, my mouth is starting to get watery .______. damn it!

Oh oh! I also had Otah, it was rather cheap, but unlike Otah in Singapore, they only had non chilli ones but it is served with peanut sauce! Just like satays right! Within seconds, all the food was gone, in the pit of my stomach. weeeee.

I spent the day looking for D's priceless gift, and and and.....

HERE IT IS

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

The two of us then bunked in back to the hotel and enjoyed our dinner there, I had Beef Steak while my mum ordered friend horfan in a Swiss cafe. cool right. haha the food there is rather awesome but what is worth mentioning is their service, I doubt many restaurants in Singapore could par up to them! No doubt, it was a wonderful evening with evergreen song's sung by the local musicians.

Tense

Time to board! Bye!

My mum was so bored that she started taking random photos. .____.

Yeah now that I'm sitting in this little couch, a little reflection goes a long way right?

I'd say today was the best flight ride ever, non peak period. I had like 3 seats to myself, really comfy ride. The flight had like only 20 seats filled out of say 300? A lady on the other aisle even lied down to sleep during the flight. power -.- Started watching Front of the Class, instead of skipping the parts that I've missed during the camp, I decided to watch it all over again. Of course it didn't fail to amaze me, Brad Cohen's attitude in life but today I saw something new. It was the same scene, but it was new. He looked at how strangers could accept him without him even explaining about his disease and gladly accept the fact that when others could not accept him, he would still not be resentful.

Hope is an hard habit to break - Brad Cohen

Oh, did I mention I got a lovely letter from a dear friend. It made me grin like an idiot during the flight, my mother thought what had happened to me. Haha. At some point it mentioned about shit life, your life's great and you know it right? <: IF YOU DON'T I WOULD SHOW YOU WHAT'S SHIT LIFE! WATCH OUT.

The flight was rather a short one, didn't felt like one and a half hours at all. So I dragged my zombified self out of the seat and cleared the customs. Taxi trip to hotel? No idea, slept all the way.

Went to WTC mangga dua Square for lunch, had A&W, something that most Singaporeans would miss. After lunch we went shopping for food clothes and other random stuffs. Went back to hotel for a short nap and wash up there after.

Alright I have no idea what to blog about. :( I'd do a make up when I'm there.

Then we went out later in the evening, looking for food, this time we traveled by foot it is then did I saw something so inspiring to blog about. I saw kids, kids at the age of 8-10? working at a shop along the streets. Somehow I thought about what you said about your life in Indonesia when you were younger. SEE I DIDN'T LIE. The kids were rather happy, I could see their happy faces from afar, even in such conditions they could find joy. Maybe, if Singaporean kids were to be replaced by them, I would say that many would whine and blame it all to whosoever.

Life life life, life would be so much easier if I could live with my loved ones in the simple planes of green shades.

starstruck

Its a clear night tonight. No clouds, perfect for star gazing. But sadly in Singapore it just hard to spot even a single stars. No doubt there are flickering lights in the sky, but they are just satellites ):

To think of it, its been years since I last stood in front of these wonderful particles. One of the many great memories I had in Perth. My mother even had the chance to see a shooting star, yet I somehow was distracted and missed it. Sigh, wonder when I would see one.

How I wish life was a fairytale, a wish upon the stars and everything would come true. Just drop me a glimpse now would you. I really need to wish for hope, hope that many of my friends had diminished in this time of difficulties. Please let them tide through. (:

sleepovers

Today had been a great day! Cause you know why? Its children's day! woohoo.

I was greeted morning with the cheerful smiles of my cousins as they visited and told me they were gonna have a sleepover tonight. We went on doing many stupid stuffs like tickling each other and gaming. I had them do maths questions set by me while I met D for lunch at 6+ in LJS. Started talking crap again, like always. :D

We decided to go home as it was rather late and D sneak out of home. So I sent her home and went back to do my essay. In the mist I was distracted and started playing with my cousins again! Started off with marking their maths questions which they are like so power. I hope my other cousin could do just as well ,soon, under my guidance. Please do well for your upcoming exams or I'm gonna get fired. HAHA, kidding, not on the doing well part, that's a must.

But the day ended rather badly. My cousin got whacked and scolded by his parents for not sleeping early when they dropped by to see how they were doing. I don't really see the point of whacking a child just because his not sleeping; especially during a sleepover? What's more to add on is that you scolded my grandma for not being able to control your kids. Go #@%! yourself. Who gave you the rights to scold your mum for not being able to control your kids, besides, they were doing well even if you wanted to be strict to your child how could you go to the extent that the person in custody to do as you say, even to raise your voice to your mother in front of your child. How does that reflect on your character.

To think that I actually once looked upon you as a role model and taking me around just to entertain me. Even getting into a minor traffic accident cause I somehow distracted you when you was driving and yet not blaming me for it. Yet now you are blaming your child for not sleeping even whacking him? what is wrong with you. Just as much I wanted to stomp out of my room just now to scream at you I decided not to. I am sure you know the limits right? Please wake up. I really wish you could be your old self which I knew long ago.

The Beginning

-disclaimer- this post shall be kept short and sweet. -disclaimer-

The day started off with Breakfast! It was rather nice. Then was VLs activity where campers get to play Captain Ball. Which was rather sian cause I did nothing besides cheering my team up, they did really well winning every game :D good job guys! Except FABIAN POH stone nia.

Then it was dragon boating, the only 2 person on the same boat from my group was the two guys. Dragon boating really brought me closer to the waters, but when I look around realizing it was only a freaking reservoir it turned me off. I just hate being confined in a fixed boundary. Sigh wonder when I could fulfill my dream of taking up diving and let the skies be the limits.

Next was lunch where C got really pissed off with K cause she somehow didn't respected her words? idk. C was really damn pissed that's all but I guess she was just too tired as they talked later on without much of a problem.

I then gathered my group (C and J ditched me, walau.) and led them to the Triangular garden where we had our briefing for the SunBeam place children and had friendship dance session. We welcomed the kids and my group was assigned with 4 kids namely, D, A, L and J. They were a bunch of little brats I would say, especially the guy he totally daoed me when I tried to talk to him. I somehow asked F and MG to talk to him instead and I was really touched by how MG and F managed to crack his golden mouth after a long period of daoing. Although it was only a short visit, I could see how happy they were during the games and interaction. After everything was a debrief, this is where we learnt about their life in SunBeam place and how some of them were abused by their parents while others are orphans. I shall not say more, maybe I would do a post about children next. Really really pissed off now.

The day ended off in gloomy weather with a fiery BBQ pit and the warm smile of the campers. As we set around having our last meal (as a camp) together. Everyone just set around smiled at each other and just waited for their food to be cooked. But I'm sure a genuine smile is worth more than an hour of conversation (:

Everyone gathered at the student lounge for a final debrief, from what all the campers had said. I am sure they had learnt a lot, and so have I. It had indeed been a memorable 2D1N camp for all of them.

Well I guess all things come to an end, it the memories that matters right? This camp had really benefited me a lot. I had gained experience as a FA as well as meeting many people with a heart of gold to help people, the world aren't such a bad place after all <: The camp also had brought me closer to the other VLs as I was rather detached due to much inactivity in meetings and prior events due to unforeseen clashes. Let us all spread the spirit together, shall we?

somehow this camp reminds me of the SWP camp (: heartfelt memories...

Day 2 + IMH visit.

Day two was rather fun I would say. Although the day did started off with a dull mood where the campers checked in and we started off with our ice breakers. Simple games such as murderer, handy-plus and many many others. True it may seem lame, retarded and stuff, but its the only way to kick start a camp right? :D I managed to talk to this guy (MG) whom was like 24, which he shared many interesting stories with me. I was rather amazed by how he mixed around with somewhat 'bad' friends and still manage to remain as what he is today. A perfect example of, Don't judge a book by it's cover.

Workshop was next! By a pleasant speaker Mr Chua. I think the workshop was rather motivational as it featured Pay It Forward. Telling us that anyone could change the world just by a little action, we can make a better place. I was inspired by how one could commit to so much volunteering work when he could better off make the big bucks. Surly I would take a long time to consider if I have the choice.

After the workshop was lunch, the food was, rather, suckish for me. Maybe cause I was a pampered child like what J said. But its not true lor when I help campers throw the food box damn heavy okay!

Constant chatter kept the group alive as we set on the bus to IMH, where we settled down in the lecture hall to be given a briefing about the patient and raising our awareness about mental health risk in Singapore. And dear God, it was the most boring lecture ever. I fell asleep :D, kana whack by C, woke up. 10 mins later, fell asleep again. Thank god the lecture ended when I was woken up again. So it was, blah blah blah blah and blah. I can't really remember anything from the lecture.

Then came the ward visit, I could see how freaked out some campers were when they waiting in the holding room, for their attendance to be taken. Likewise for myself I was stunned by their actions and glares on us. Finally, we were allowed in and I ask the campers to roam around and try to interact with them, it was rather successful as many took initiative. Although some (like myself) were relentless to go we still manage to talk to a few of them. It was a rather nice experience for me, I mean its as bad as I've imagined. After that was a wrap up lecture where I was forced by J and C to talk about the ward visit. I don't remember what I actually said except for mentioning K's name cause she somehow caught my attention during the visit. Speaking in-front of so many people is actually so much FUN! Not the big enough to break my record yet, but for in-promp-to I guess it did.

Later in the evening, we had movie screening of the front of the class. The movie featured a true life story of Brad Cohen. He was born with Tourette Syndrome where he had little control over his twitches and weird noises he produce especially under stress. Overall, it was a great movie. Too bad I was so tired that I had headaches and switched off halfway during the movie. Which J woke me up (WHY DOES EVERYONE WAKES ME UP WHEN I DOZE OFF). I walked out as I felt damn horrible and washed my face in the toilet. Went back in to catch the rest of the movie but was dragged by WS to eat cup noodles. I am so gonna watch the movie again. soon.

The movie ended with mass debrief and reflection where MG went to share the group's experience, I would say it was a job well done and I had expected no less. Supper was rather enjoyable as we set down as a family and exchanged our Facebook's and shared about our life, I would say that it was one great moments during the camp. Thereafter was group debrief, where we -or should I say them- settled down and shared the experience we had for the day. I screwed up big time during this debrief and pissed C off. Said something really nasty about the camp although it was not really intentional.

Mummy A got really worried as we were not with the campers ): cause we thought that the FA briefing was there and we just left the campers to go wash up and tuck in. FA briefing was so fun, WJH kana own by MC and VL's. Although I don't really know him, his really freaking me out, suddenly sitting next to me during the bus trip from IMH to school. Weirdo.

Camp part one!

Today marks the 1st day of the annual CSC camp! or should I say its tomorrow since it's just prep-camp today. :) Had been a fun yet boring day, I'm sure most of us here would have agreed.

Greeted early in the morning through a phone call from D. Thanks for waking me up! :) forgotten to on the alarm yesterday :) haha. So we went on preparing and met later at her void deck. The day had started rather badly I would say. It was pouring with gallons of rain early in the morning. Just imagine how we struggled with the umbrellas to shield ourselves as well as our 'pregnant' bags! to make it worst I forgotten to bring my camp form and we had to walk back to my house. Gah!

We went on meeting WS for breakfast at prime which the beehoon sucks; or maybe I had no appetite. and later went to the meeting room!

This marks the official start of the camp! I was excited as we made bookmarks for orphans which would visit our school in day 2, but slowly the enthusiasm died down. Cause I had literally nothing to do. ):

WS and D went on to help the Maincomm with their respective roles while the VLs remained in the room and conducted ice breakers to bond and to have an rough idea of what we are gonna do tomorrow!

Then we went on with briefings on the camp as a whole and then to individual activities. It was a little dry and I was rather turned offed by what they had planned, it was rather 'not fun'. So I dully followed the plan and had try out activities.

Soon it was dinner and the last few hours was a zoom! After dinner is another briefing! And we had supper, where I set down next to ws and we shared prata. I started thinking about many many things that had happened today and the one line ws told me while we were coming back from cheers. I reflected upon it, and told myself that I have to change my mindset! It was not easy to become a VL especially with almost zero experience I would say. I jolly well should treasure what I had been given and do my best. Like what hwee hoon says, do with your heart and give it your best.

Yes tomorrow would be better! I should sleep soon it would be a hectic day tomorrow but I'm sure I would learn a lot more and have fun! Nights!

Angels

Penguins. Fluffy birds, makes great pillows.

Oh my god, what's wrong with me ._. I am being all so random again.

hi i know you are here.

go sleep. now. <:

to that special friend. Nights.