So, here's Christmas.

Well, I'm not someone whom is fond on comparing but.... this year's Christmas was extraordinary.

Cause I got to spent it with....

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with this awesome friend :D

So, here's what happened....

we got together in this three days...

the -1 day of Christmas, was spent walking around city area looking for lights. After we had our xmas service and lunch. I'm glad that this cheerful idiot decided to bring me along to spend christmas with me. To be hosnest, to date, christmas has never been anything important to me. Besides being invited to xmas parties, its just a normal day to me. So yeah, I was overjoy when the day came to an end as we snuggled in our santa hat and walk all the way back to the train station to catch our train back home. At the same time, my heart was dampened, I realized i had no plans for tomorrow! and how it would let down my friend.

The 1st day of Christmas, the morning was well spent of sleeping as my dear friend had somehow fall sick and had giddy spells, as i woke up, i rushed off to ikea to prepare my little surprise. By the time i got home, I had to start preparing for the first surprise of the day, a mini amazing race. Grabbed my markers to draw directions and quickly prepared the prize. She was cursing me by the time she found me, but lucky my hand cooked noodles made her smile and this is when i thought i really suck at planning such stuffs. bleah. The day was later spend in church and we had our dinner somewhere, i cant really remember. But the night was spent in festival park lightning candles, but a huge gust of wind wiped out everything so we had to make do without the flames. Still, Christmas was memorable as we took many photos together, and acted like a couple, teasing each other on the way.

The 2nd day of Christmas, as she had projects to do, I was able to sleep in that day and around 5, we met at festival park for our little boxing day, it was a mess, literally, we started smearing cakes on each other's face and soaking each other with the little bottle of water we bought at the nearby minimart. The two of us were just like little kids that would never grow up. As the sun set, we bought our dinners and headed home.

Well, that summarized my Christmas.

and to my dear then crush, now girlfriend.

i love you, forever and always.

How do you eat an elephant? One bite at a time!

Its funny how just taking one step, everything may just change. No, I'm not talking about small changes but changes which would change everything. Ironically just one wrong step would be the end.

I'm very much a strong believer of predestine, everything is planned. But that won't stop me from fighting for what I really what. And even if I don't get what I want I would still pick myself up with a smile and get over with it. For at the end of the day, what's most important is the process of learning and not the result.

Oh, Christmas was of cause awesome, spending with the special someone <: I will come up with the updates soon! Promise!

Trusting the never ending

Awesome. Volunteering just hit rock bottom again. I'm starting to think that 'non-profit' organizations are all bullshit. -.- the next time I help someone I will render aid to those people in need directly. Freaking idiots screw yourselves.

Value-ship

Here I am in the truck on the way to Bukit Timah Hill. My mind is oozing with lots of question and it all comes down to value-ship.

I realised that this world is one which is kind of selfish. Perhaps it's just me but... I don't know. Without valueship I really can't find any motivation to do anything. Independent really seems so vague to me now.

Sadly but true that I'm really starting find 'giving without returns' impossible. Strictly speaking there is really a limit to how much one could give. And that limit is decided by none other than what others could give in return.

'Treat others the way you wish to be treated' is one of those many household quote you would hear from your parents. I guess it's how we are bought up. It is a fact that we only do good just because we want something good in return.

I guess the least I ask for is just valueship, no I won't stop giving. No matter how cruel this would may be, I would try, and if I fail, I would try again. A change has to be done.

But thankfully, I'm given much more than that I ask for. And for that I am grateful.

Its been a while

Wow looking back I haven't touch this for quite a long time! So dear reader, yes just one, here's for today. :)

I got a couple of words stuck in my head right now. One of which is

Abundant of Joy.

:) need me explain more? Well I'm not one bit old school but this is just too much of a cliché.

Every night after seeing you home the stroll back home is something that really excites me. I can't just help but wonder how things would turn out the next 'alternate' (idiotic rule -.-) day which I get to see you home. As memories of the day flashes though my mind I just can't help but smile wondering why I didn't knew you earlier. Yes, I'm thankful of everything. Every single awaits a new hope. So thank you.

Well, I guess I've known you for quite a while, almost for a decade (gosh, we're really getting old huh! Haha) but all that we've talked about is just...

How to complete our racial harmony project? And maybe some trivial nonsense.

But it was till early this year, that everything seems to have changed. I'm sure that my life has changed, you? I guess it did too, right? :)

I could still remember the seoul garden meal which has brought us closer. Perhaps it was not that but your every words to ask me our and watch movie with you and Nabilah. Especially the ridiculous movie HOP that we've watched.

And the many a times when we had our first tuition sessions at Akip's house where you would poke me and doodle on my paper to encourage me to study. -YOU STILL OWE HER MONEY!- Many a times you would annoy me just to get me to talk to you.

Also the time we became 'colleagues' or rather slaves where we had to get people to fill in a road long form just to get 5 cents. And the encouragement you gave me to approach strangers.

The time we had during english tuition and teaching Siti stuffs that she doesn't know.

The long long vacation which we spent on each other with. Trips to library, movies, meals, beaches, camps and even outside Singapore. Fragments of our conversation still lingers in my mind.

And the many times we lend our hands to help those whom are in need. Helping others without anything in return. Hoping that the world wound become better with our little actions. Don't give up on that dream. It would work out.

Planning class outing and going through all the pains just to get people to come. Buying the food, making sandwiches. Creating games which failed. :D

The many many competition we had to make each other better. Bento, gifts, and many other retarded ones.

These were all the happy times. What really amazed me was our '7 years' friendship was theoretically form in less that a year.

Throughout these '7 years' we've been through a lot like I've said. These were the happy times, but there were also bad times, for me, for you, for us. But it all worked out pretty fine, no matter how bad we're at cheering people up, somehow we still manage make each other feel better. And for that I am thankful.

All I wish pray and hope is for you to share your worries, sometimes I really can't help but feel that I don't understand you well enough and there is nothing I could do to make you feel better. And I'm sure you had felt that way too before. So please would you?