Dwindling Dream

My dream had always been to help others. Sharing, Loving, Caring. No person in this world should be deprived of these. Something that humanity should embrace upon.

Sadly, it is something not that simple.

I've been devoting much time participating in volunteering work in the past two weeks. I'd say that they all had their learning points. From baby sitting to fund raising then to house cleaning and more fundraising. What great ways to spent a weekend. I do very much realised that my actions would surly benefit those whom are in need, till...

This little conversation we had with Dorin, I could really see that in this world, it is really easy to be lead astray than to do good. She had really painted in my mind a world pitched black, a world with woes, problems leading to more problems. Something, somehow gave me a 'helpless' feeling, a feeling like no matter how much I do there would still be people whom are stuck in dip-shit, to a point where everything is like so pointless. It seems to me that I had done a lot, a lot to help others but rendering help is not a one time, two time process. It is something that required commitment, something that you do out of pure goodwill and not receiving anything in return. I do wonder what makes me so willing to help. Perhaps I already had a miracle in my life. Despite the many circumstances that I had gone through which would had eventually lead me astray, somehow I manage to workout the correct one. And yes I'm thankful for that. Many a times, at junctures where I face difficulty, someone would surely point a direction for me. Yes I'm grateful.

And for you my friend, you may had not been as lucky as I'm. Having to face what I call 'little hiccups' in life. I still remember something you said, "I believe in a person's life a person would experience equal amount of good and bad." So stick on to it, stop dwelling in the past for there is more good days to come. I'd just like to make a note that at any point, should you face any problems, dilemma, what so ever or maybe just someone to talk to. I'd gladly answer.

Perhaps I could be the "pillar of strength". (: