sleepovers

Today had been a great day! Cause you know why? Its children's day! woohoo.

I was greeted morning with the cheerful smiles of my cousins as they visited and told me they were gonna have a sleepover tonight. We went on doing many stupid stuffs like tickling each other and gaming. I had them do maths questions set by me while I met D for lunch at 6+ in LJS. Started talking crap again, like always. :D

We decided to go home as it was rather late and D sneak out of home. So I sent her home and went back to do my essay. In the mist I was distracted and started playing with my cousins again! Started off with marking their maths questions which they are like so power. I hope my other cousin could do just as well ,soon, under my guidance. Please do well for your upcoming exams or I'm gonna get fired. HAHA, kidding, not on the doing well part, that's a must.

But the day ended rather badly. My cousin got whacked and scolded by his parents for not sleeping early when they dropped by to see how they were doing. I don't really see the point of whacking a child just because his not sleeping; especially during a sleepover? What's more to add on is that you scolded my grandma for not being able to control your kids. Go #@%! yourself. Who gave you the rights to scold your mum for not being able to control your kids, besides, they were doing well even if you wanted to be strict to your child how could you go to the extent that the person in custody to do as you say, even to raise your voice to your mother in front of your child. How does that reflect on your character.

To think that I actually once looked upon you as a role model and taking me around just to entertain me. Even getting into a minor traffic accident cause I somehow distracted you when you was driving and yet not blaming me for it. Yet now you are blaming your child for not sleeping even whacking him? what is wrong with you. Just as much I wanted to stomp out of my room just now to scream at you I decided not to. I am sure you know the limits right? Please wake up. I really wish you could be your old self which I knew long ago.

The Beginning

-disclaimer- this post shall be kept short and sweet. -disclaimer-

The day started off with Breakfast! It was rather nice. Then was VLs activity where campers get to play Captain Ball. Which was rather sian cause I did nothing besides cheering my team up, they did really well winning every game :D good job guys! Except FABIAN POH stone nia.

Then it was dragon boating, the only 2 person on the same boat from my group was the two guys. Dragon boating really brought me closer to the waters, but when I look around realizing it was only a freaking reservoir it turned me off. I just hate being confined in a fixed boundary. Sigh wonder when I could fulfill my dream of taking up diving and let the skies be the limits.

Next was lunch where C got really pissed off with K cause she somehow didn't respected her words? idk. C was really damn pissed that's all but I guess she was just too tired as they talked later on without much of a problem.

I then gathered my group (C and J ditched me, walau.) and led them to the Triangular garden where we had our briefing for the SunBeam place children and had friendship dance session. We welcomed the kids and my group was assigned with 4 kids namely, D, A, L and J. They were a bunch of little brats I would say, especially the guy he totally daoed me when I tried to talk to him. I somehow asked F and MG to talk to him instead and I was really touched by how MG and F managed to crack his golden mouth after a long period of daoing. Although it was only a short visit, I could see how happy they were during the games and interaction. After everything was a debrief, this is where we learnt about their life in SunBeam place and how some of them were abused by their parents while others are orphans. I shall not say more, maybe I would do a post about children next. Really really pissed off now.

The day ended off in gloomy weather with a fiery BBQ pit and the warm smile of the campers. As we set around having our last meal (as a camp) together. Everyone just set around smiled at each other and just waited for their food to be cooked. But I'm sure a genuine smile is worth more than an hour of conversation (:

Everyone gathered at the student lounge for a final debrief, from what all the campers had said. I am sure they had learnt a lot, and so have I. It had indeed been a memorable 2D1N camp for all of them.

Well I guess all things come to an end, it the memories that matters right? This camp had really benefited me a lot. I had gained experience as a FA as well as meeting many people with a heart of gold to help people, the world aren't such a bad place after all <: The camp also had brought me closer to the other VLs as I was rather detached due to much inactivity in meetings and prior events due to unforeseen clashes. Let us all spread the spirit together, shall we?

somehow this camp reminds me of the SWP camp (: heartfelt memories...

Day 2 + IMH visit.

Day two was rather fun I would say. Although the day did started off with a dull mood where the campers checked in and we started off with our ice breakers. Simple games such as murderer, handy-plus and many many others. True it may seem lame, retarded and stuff, but its the only way to kick start a camp right? :D I managed to talk to this guy (MG) whom was like 24, which he shared many interesting stories with me. I was rather amazed by how he mixed around with somewhat 'bad' friends and still manage to remain as what he is today. A perfect example of, Don't judge a book by it's cover.

Workshop was next! By a pleasant speaker Mr Chua. I think the workshop was rather motivational as it featured Pay It Forward. Telling us that anyone could change the world just by a little action, we can make a better place. I was inspired by how one could commit to so much volunteering work when he could better off make the big bucks. Surly I would take a long time to consider if I have the choice.

After the workshop was lunch, the food was, rather, suckish for me. Maybe cause I was a pampered child like what J said. But its not true lor when I help campers throw the food box damn heavy okay!

Constant chatter kept the group alive as we set on the bus to IMH, where we settled down in the lecture hall to be given a briefing about the patient and raising our awareness about mental health risk in Singapore. And dear God, it was the most boring lecture ever. I fell asleep :D, kana whack by C, woke up. 10 mins later, fell asleep again. Thank god the lecture ended when I was woken up again. So it was, blah blah blah blah and blah. I can't really remember anything from the lecture.

Then came the ward visit, I could see how freaked out some campers were when they waiting in the holding room, for their attendance to be taken. Likewise for myself I was stunned by their actions and glares on us. Finally, we were allowed in and I ask the campers to roam around and try to interact with them, it was rather successful as many took initiative. Although some (like myself) were relentless to go we still manage to talk to a few of them. It was a rather nice experience for me, I mean its as bad as I've imagined. After that was a wrap up lecture where I was forced by J and C to talk about the ward visit. I don't remember what I actually said except for mentioning K's name cause she somehow caught my attention during the visit. Speaking in-front of so many people is actually so much FUN! Not the big enough to break my record yet, but for in-promp-to I guess it did.

Later in the evening, we had movie screening of the front of the class. The movie featured a true life story of Brad Cohen. He was born with Tourette Syndrome where he had little control over his twitches and weird noises he produce especially under stress. Overall, it was a great movie. Too bad I was so tired that I had headaches and switched off halfway during the movie. Which J woke me up (WHY DOES EVERYONE WAKES ME UP WHEN I DOZE OFF). I walked out as I felt damn horrible and washed my face in the toilet. Went back in to catch the rest of the movie but was dragged by WS to eat cup noodles. I am so gonna watch the movie again. soon.

The movie ended with mass debrief and reflection where MG went to share the group's experience, I would say it was a job well done and I had expected no less. Supper was rather enjoyable as we set down as a family and exchanged our Facebook's and shared about our life, I would say that it was one great moments during the camp. Thereafter was group debrief, where we -or should I say them- settled down and shared the experience we had for the day. I screwed up big time during this debrief and pissed C off. Said something really nasty about the camp although it was not really intentional.

Mummy A got really worried as we were not with the campers ): cause we thought that the FA briefing was there and we just left the campers to go wash up and tuck in. FA briefing was so fun, WJH kana own by MC and VL's. Although I don't really know him, his really freaking me out, suddenly sitting next to me during the bus trip from IMH to school. Weirdo.

Camp part one!

Today marks the 1st day of the annual CSC camp! or should I say its tomorrow since it's just prep-camp today. :) Had been a fun yet boring day, I'm sure most of us here would have agreed.

Greeted early in the morning through a phone call from D. Thanks for waking me up! :) forgotten to on the alarm yesterday :) haha. So we went on preparing and met later at her void deck. The day had started rather badly I would say. It was pouring with gallons of rain early in the morning. Just imagine how we struggled with the umbrellas to shield ourselves as well as our 'pregnant' bags! to make it worst I forgotten to bring my camp form and we had to walk back to my house. Gah!

We went on meeting WS for breakfast at prime which the beehoon sucks; or maybe I had no appetite. and later went to the meeting room!

This marks the official start of the camp! I was excited as we made bookmarks for orphans which would visit our school in day 2, but slowly the enthusiasm died down. Cause I had literally nothing to do. ):

WS and D went on to help the Maincomm with their respective roles while the VLs remained in the room and conducted ice breakers to bond and to have an rough idea of what we are gonna do tomorrow!

Then we went on with briefings on the camp as a whole and then to individual activities. It was a little dry and I was rather turned offed by what they had planned, it was rather 'not fun'. So I dully followed the plan and had try out activities.

Soon it was dinner and the last few hours was a zoom! After dinner is another briefing! And we had supper, where I set down next to ws and we shared prata. I started thinking about many many things that had happened today and the one line ws told me while we were coming back from cheers. I reflected upon it, and told myself that I have to change my mindset! It was not easy to become a VL especially with almost zero experience I would say. I jolly well should treasure what I had been given and do my best. Like what hwee hoon says, do with your heart and give it your best.

Yes tomorrow would be better! I should sleep soon it would be a hectic day tomorrow but I'm sure I would learn a lot more and have fun! Nights!

Angels

Penguins. Fluffy birds, makes great pillows.

Oh my god, what's wrong with me ._. I am being all so random again.

hi i know you are here.

go sleep. now. <:

to that special friend. Nights.

a complete family.

I was never fortunate enough to be given this, but like what my grandma told be a few days ago, god is fair he takes something and gives something. So I found this rather true I was born in a broken yet happy family. All this would not have been possible with my dearest mother that no word in the dictionary could explain her. Hi mom, I love you.

To the friend that inspired me to write this, I am thankful of you and hope you could achieve what I am given soon. It took me a long long time to accept the fact that my dad was gone. I could still remember that in the past, when someone asks me about my dad, even close friends, I'd give an awkward smile and just pay lip service. But now I had the courage to refute about how one could be unhappy if we were unfortunally born in an incomplete family. True we may not be given the privilege but I'm sure we are given something in exchange for it.

I could sweetly say that

yes, I may not have a complete family but I am happy.