Life is good.

Life is always good because I have a vrry good girlfriend.

The end.

What the hell

Crying for the fucking dumbest reason. And I dont even know why.

Can someone please tell me what is happening? Coz I feel like dying right now.

If my life was a storybook

I wonder which genre it would be. Would you be in that story. Or would you be the protagonist that would give me a sweet warm home or an antagonist that would make my life meaningless or would you be a nobody.

If only we knew, right?

Melding the sadness

I wonder why am I so particularly disturbed tonight. Maybe I might be suffering from an emotional breakdown.

It's as though I don't understand how this world works anymore, 19 years and growing yet I still have no clue. There's just so much question on my mind right now. So much so that all these unhappy thoughts are lurking in and I'm torn asunder.

They say relationships grows a person, yet I have no clue as to what might happen in the future, I can't differentiate what's right or wrong anymore. I'm lost. The next step seems too far away to even vision in my mind.

I realised I never had to handle failures in a way that many other people faces problem with. But disappointment is something I can't seem to adapt with, it feels surreal yet in reality it is there. Real, deadly and painful.

I wonder how long would this feeling linger, may it be gone soon and let me have peace. Life would've been so much better if there were someone whom truly understands.

If you could see me.

Dear you,

Sorry for walking away like that. I couldn't face it.

I'm extremely upset that im treated like this, it feels as though whats left of my little positivity is slowly being drained away. I don't really mind if anyone said those words to me, it doesn't really matter. But you're my emotional support, my partner, I expect you to give me that support I need. Not to run me down like this, fine, you may say that it was mean't to be a joke. It hurts.

So please, if you're not gonna encourage me, please do not criticize me.

oh well, if you see this give me a call or sth?

love you.

Letters To Heaven

Heeeeeeeey. How are you doing? Its almost the 19th year since you first saw me. I must have brought you so much smile since mummy always told me how much you wanted a boy. I miss you so much. How I wish you were right here right now, with us celebrating my birthday as a family. If only words could bring you back, how I wish that would really happen. I guess life would really be that different, maybe I would've persuaded you to quit smoking by now. Maybe I would've gotten encouragement, love and care from you. Maybe I would've you to share my the joy of my future achievements with.

To be honest, trying to recall the time I had with you were as though chasing a fleeting shadow on a cloudy day. No matter how hard I try, I just can't seem to remember any of it. That must have been what the pain we have gone through to let you go. But, I'm sure it was time well spent. Two years, seeing me grow everyday, working hard just to provide for me, I'm sure you must have loved me a lot right? Yeah... I'm sure.
I love you too.

I guess it would've been known by you by now that I'm an ambitious person. I don't want to live the life as a majority. I want to be someone special. They all say that people my age are all ambitious, and that the majority would wake up from their dream by the age of 35. But I wouldn't give up chasing my dream, let that be a promise to you. I will be successful. One day, when I grow old, maybe I would fumble through this post and realise that it was you that have given me strength to press on. It was you that made me whom I am today, and that it was you that made me to whom I am in the future.

today.

oh well.

hi.

i am gonna start.

but you're gonna be angry again.

i hate you.

you're always angry with me

especially when you ask me to tell you things then you angry

and if i dont tell you things you you also angry

what to do sia.

walau.

you suck la

bad bobo

bad

bad

bad

bad

bad

to redeem yourself. please sue my neighbor for playing mahjong.

BAD.

I AM ANGRY

TODAY I AM ANGRY WITH BOBO.

REASONS:

SHE IS DUMBO
SHE IS FAT
SHE IS THIN
SHE IS UGLY
SHE IS CHIO
SHE IS BEAUTIFUL
SHE IS FUGLY
SHE IS HAPPY
SHE IS SAD
SHE IS "NONE OF MY BUSINESS" MODE
SHE IS ALWAYS ASKING "BUBU WHY YOU SO SIAN" AND NOT ENTERTAINING ME
SHE IS TIRED
SHE IS ROLL ROLL ROLL
SHE IS BUY DONUTS TO FEED ANTS
SHE HAS UGLY HAIR
SHE HAS BEAUTIFUL HAIR
SHE HAS UGLY NOSE
SHE HAS BEAUTIFUL NOSE
SHE HAS NOSE HAIR
SHE OWES ME 5 MINS OF TICKLING
SHE IS GRUMPY
SHE IS NOT WAKING UP.

DONE.

MORE TO GO. NO IDEAS. ANYTHING ASK ME.

P.S. I LOVE YOU. PLEASE DO NOT HATE ME. YOU DUMB DUMB. AND STOP MAKING ME SAD. DUMB DUMB. LOVE YOU SO MUCH DUMB DUMB.

Reasons

I WONT GIVE A DAMN ANYMORE.
I WONT GIVE A DAMN ANYMORE.
I WONT GIVE A DAMN ANYMORE.
I WONT GIVE A DAMN ANYMORE.
I WONT GIVE A DAMN ANYMORE.
I WONT GIVE A DAMN ANYMORE.
I WONT GIVE A DAMN ANYMORE.
I WONT GIVE A DAMN ANYMORE.
I WONT GIVE A DAMN ANYMORE.
I WONT....

but I can't, it's the reason why I love you.

“I have found the paradox, that if you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love.”

Well, I guess this is one of those situation which common sense can't explain. Let us just experience the enchanting memories that are to be shared.

Time fading away.

Seems like this is it. Nothing left to say, nothing left to talk about. Let's just wait and see if the ending is just as predicted.

Project day!

The back in school feeling is back...

Just when I thought it was finally the holidays.. It's gonna be over soon ):

Oh well! HELLO 2013! :D

Haunted

Haha. Am I such an unfeeling person?

So much problems, so much pain. Press on my dear.

Sigh.

I may never understand.

So I hear but I don't listen. I listen but I don't feel. I feel but I don't understand. Because I'm not you. I would never understand no matter how hard you explain, I could only give you my opinion and my own point of view.

But there are also things which I understand. I understand that I love you. I understand that I wish to make you happy to the best possible method. I understand that your mum doesn't trust you. I understand that you problems are my problems. I understand that I should try to give my opinions. I understand that you may not like my opinions. But that doesn't give you the right to hate me.

I always believed one thing. If you can't even keep a healthy relationship with your closest kins. How would one ever have a healthy relationship with one that started as an outsider. There is no way no how someone could give the best possible to their partner when they don't even have a healthy relationship with their parents. No. It was not by chance. It's not that I was lucky. It's cultivated.

Either way, I'm sorry if I was too harsh on you with my words. I'd gladly take it back, give me a call. We'll meet somewhere and talk about it harmoniously.

I know your words were dished out with anger and I hope they are. So it's all good.

P.s. I love you more than you'd ever imagine and I know you know that yourself. (:

live a life of love

How hard was it to fall in love? It was never a problem, remember those little crushes we all had with this extraordinary person that we just couldn't forget. I'm sure we all have experienced it before. The joy of having a crush on someone and than that feeling develops and soon you realised you're in love. 

But, love could be such a volatile thing. It comes and goes, sometimes the feeling just doesn't grow and soon, you would forget the person. Life goes on and one day you would than meet another new crush, and the cycle continues. And maybe this time, fate and destiny would allow a mutual bond between the two love birds. 

Interestingly thought, falling in love is so easy and there is not much effort required. All it matters is that things goes in the right place at the right time and we only have to leave it up for fate to decide. Not much of the thing to do other than caring and looking out for that person more which comes naturally. Whereas, keeping in a loving relationship takes much much more effort. Which in most cases causes relationships to fail in this era, people are no longer valuing relationships as something that is irreplaceable, people have this mindset that.. damn.. there must be a guy/girl out there that is better than my boyfriend/girlfriend.. his/she's such an asshole. Which is theoretically true as everyone's view of "better" is different and there is surely someone that has a strength over another person. Which results in a much much higher rate of separation than  during the medieval period. 

So... you may wonder, than how am I suppose to actually achieve my "happily ever after" ending. Well, it's not possible..... Just kidding! Look at all those loving couples that lived together for more than half a century, holding hands and gazing at each other with that infatuating look. There must be a secret to their happy relationship, maybe they were just lucky. However, I actually did some research and found the little secret that may be the key to such a relationship that every couple ought to die for....

Stage #1 The infatuation stage.

Stage #2 The understanding stage.
Stage #3 The stage of disturbances.
Stage #4 The opinion maker.
Stage #5 The moulding stage.
Stage #6 The happy stage.
Stage #7 The stage of doubts.
Stage #8 The sexual exploration or bust stage.
Stage #9 The stage of complete trust.

So yup, there are 9 stages that every relationship has to undertake in order to have this little "happily ever after" ending. Quite a pain in the ass I must say, it should have been more simple like falling in love and what not. Bah. Still! I'm going to work on this with my loving partner, and hopefully lady luck is on our side. Everything would go as planned, married, kids, kids graduation, retirement... and stuff like that. Such is life. Simple. Plain. Yet people fight so hard to live. While some gave up halfway, my heart goes out to these people. May they find their path soon.

As for myself, I really really really hope, that my significant half and I would work our way out of stage 3 soon. It's really really really annoying these days. Things just don't go our way and most of the time we have to compromise to the extend that we even quarrel, or even get sicked of quarreling. Well! "Happily Ever After" is what I promised but both of us have to work for it. So, yup. It's glad that I'm actually working with you to fulfill my promise. 

Right now, I just have to do something to make it happen again.

Life is wonderful, interesting and fulfilling! right on.

Hi everyone,

I am giving my girlfriend a massage now because her body is aching. She is finally back from Bali! I missed her so much ):

Drawn

Five months.

Piling up and up like a vicious cycle that we might never break. It's a relief that we will leave this world one day.

-.-

Screw this shit.

Feelings

Today I was happy!

Then I was annoyed

Then I was irritated

Then I was concerned

Then I was worried

Then I was upset

Then I was unhappy

Then I was sad.

What a day.

Hey Darling! Before I start writing this letter solve this Anagram, it holds the answer to me treating you this way for now till... forever ^^

 You Olive

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Letter written in ink! Don't lose it! <3